LA 66

I will always remember
When I met Marilyn Monroe
Working on a movie set
About a lifetime ago
Every now and then
You'll still see my face
But you know, I'm nobody
That you would ever know

I worked so hard
To refine my art
The best that I could
I read the cards
Learned my parts
And always smiled on cue

These are my golden years
But there's no glitter here
In LA 66
You will read my name
After I fade away
In LA 66

Let me show you a picture
Of me and Olivier
Trading lines, blocking scenes
On the Hollywood stage

Since I remember
A lifetime contender
Member of SAG
When parts are sparse
They cut up your card
When you're late with union fees

 

 

IN MY EYES

I don't want to be the one
To hold you down, hold your hand
To make you understand
We've both had our fun
Made big plans, made amends
But we're better off as friends

In my eyes I can see
You don't know me and you'd rather be free
In my mind our time has come and passed
And now it's moot to make it last

I don't want to waste more words
To explain, to complain
Point a finger, lay the blame
We both tried our best
Failed the test, then regressed
Now we can only second guess

(chorus)

I feel so sheltered here
In this house we made
Still the truth remains
That our needs are just not the same

 

 

I WANNA BE A DOOR

Sometimes I wonder if you know who I am
I want to know what you're doing
And who you're doing it with
It's just each time that I see you
My knees melt to the floor
I wanna be a door

I wanna be a door
To see you sleep at night
And keep you in my sight
I wanna be a door
To lock you in a room
And keep you to myself

You hold my heart in the palm of your hand
You've got the key to my world
You hold the master plan
All I get from you
Are words that are untrue
I want to be a door

I wanna be a door
So I won't feel any pain
Or ever go insane
I wanna be a door
Keep a handle on my emotions
Please understand my notion

It's not normal to get used to
Wearing my heart as a lump in my throat
Having to watch your very mood and reaction
Just waiting for something to explode

I wanna be a door

 

 

STAY ANOTHER DAY

I know no good reasons
And I know I don't have a right
To be asking you to stay
When things come to a head
And everything's been said
You know it's better off this way

Still something's unresolved
And I don't know the cause
But I know that I'll be okay
If you stay another day

I know the plan
Is to just shake hands
And say goodnight
And I know either way
Nothing will be changed
If we make up or fight

Still I can't help but think
That with another drink
All the pain will go away
If you stay another day

You know I'm not foolish enough
To try and change you
And I know you well enough
Not to cry and claim you
And I would never blaim you
If you choose to walk away
But baby, stay another day

I know no good words
And I can quote you no great lines
In making you see
I will only get through
With a little help from you
Though you don't owe it to me

Just take a little time
To search through your mind
For our happy yesterdays
And come on, baby, stay another day

 

 

LAST TIME

Someone please tell me
What I'm doing wrong
'Cause each time I find love
I wind up falling alone

I've spent too many nights crying
Just trying hard to understand
Why hearts are made so fragile
When they so often have to break and bend
Then attempt to mend

'Til I find a cure for a heartache
Something to kill the pain
I swear that this is the last time
I fall head first in love again

Somewhere there must be
A great set of rules
Explaining this crazy game
To the simplest of fools

I thought I was immune
So in tune with my soul
That I could never get burned
But I learned so slow just to know
When it's time to let go

(chorus)

I tried so hard to make you understand
That I wanted so much
For us to be more than just friends

 

DAYDREAMING

If I seem a bit distant
Or just a tad strange
All my thoughts are on hold
In the back of my brain
While I'm daydreaming about you again

My friends say I'm crazy
Cause they can't understand
How I'm so taken by a man
They can talk
While I'm daydreaming about you again

I never thought it could happen to me
Who would've ever believed
That I'd be falling in love
But here I am daydreaming about you again

If my speech is slurred
And the words too fast
Feeble attempt
To conceal the fact
That I'm daydreaming about you again

If I call you up
To discuss the mundane
"Cloudy skies
With a chance of rain"
Sure bet I'm daydreaming about you again

(chorus)

Until I can hold you every night
I'll have you with me all the time
Even if just in my mind
It's no wonder then
That I'm daydreaming about you again

If I seem a bit distant or just a tad strange

 

 

HE DRIVES ME WILD

He makes me laugh
He makes me cry
And sometimes I can't understand why
We go through hell
Only to come back
I guess that's why they say love is blind

He drives me wild
He drives me crazy
He drives me to the edge of my own sanity
But he's my world
He's my baby
And I'd gladly go anywhere he may drive me

He holds me tight
But says I'm free
He watches over me but never sees
Our changing moods
Different needs
Sometimes I think we're in love just to be

(chorus)

Maybe with time
Changes will come
But for now, he's the only thing I know

 

 

CHANGED MY WAYS

I heard a song on the radio this morning
That reminded me of you
Found myself dialing your number
Wondering what you're up to

Some time has passed to let the rage of the storm calm down
I find my mind keeps asking if I'll be seeing you around

If you saw me walking at night all alone
Would you offer to take me home
If I said it was hard getting by on my own
Would you care enough to phone
When you said you'd love me forever
I didn't think it'd really matter if I took you for granted
But now that you're gone

I've changed my ways
Won't you come on back and see
I'm not the same girl I used to be
I've changed my ways
Won't you listen to me please
I'm not the same
As when you left me

Driving by your house
I almost invited myself in
Toying with the notion
That somehow we're still friends

I never meant to have cause you so much pain
Could you feign forgiveness if our paths should cross again

(pre-chorus)

 

 

FINER SHADE OF GREY

 

In the city of angels
Where so many fall out of grace
I was in line for a halo
As I made passage through her gates

Carrying baggage of youthful ideals
That I'd set out to make real
I never thought that I'd be one
To be begging for a means back home

Now who do I trust
What do I believe in
Why do I linger
When I should be leaving

What's wrong, what's right
Is it day or night, black or white
Who's to say anyway
Can't we just turn everything a finer shade of grey

Way too much schoolin'
To learn everything that I'll never know
The earth is round and the sky is blue
Because somebody had told me so

Constant obsession with the things
Just barely out of reach
Then you come to me in my moment of weakness
To prove I don't practice what I preach

(pre-chorus)

(chorus)

In a different time, a different life
I'd follow my heart and swallow my pride
But for now, I've got to tear down the fences
Break down the walls of all these expectations
Holding me inside

In the city of angels

 

 

END THIS WAY

The slam of the door
The click of the lock
You pull away and refuse to stop
Our life together packed in your car
And a house full of regrets is all I've got now

My cries of freedom
Angered pleas
Weren't meant as cues for you to leave
Memories of us jilt my bones
I cringe at the thought of being alone

I didn't mean for us to end this way
Please take me back to yesterday
I'd say the right words to make you stay
I didn't mean for us to end this way

Naïve notions
Of how love should be
Built a wall between you and me
Fear and neglect made the wall strong
Then it was too late to tear it down

I tried to fight
Before all was lost
Thought that we were a worthy cause
Good intentions gone awry
Made casualties of you and I

(chorus)

Helpless I stand as I watch your shadow fade

 

 

KIND OF NIGHT

Here I am in a different city
Still under the same sky
And I'm wondering if I'll see you again
I've heard that life goes in circles
It must explain why
I always feel like I'm going around the bend

And I'm missing you tonight
Just a little
Each star in the sky
Reminds me of that look in your eyes
When we said goodbye

It's the kind of night
That cuts right through you
Tears you up and it won't let go
Like a cold wind
That really rips into you
After its gone it still chills you to the bone

I see it on the street
And in flashes on my TV
Must be the time of year love is in the air
Couples holding hands
Clinging on to one another
I can't escape it, it's everywhere

Now I'm missing you tonight
Just a little
Each reflection of light
Reminds me of that look in your eyes
When we said goodbye

(chorus)

And the road can seem so long
When I'm so far from home
Running from the memories of you

 

 

FALL APART

There's a time and there's a place
When we all fall out of grace
And there comes a day
When we all lose our way

There's a right and there's a wrong
There are lines that are drawn
Though it hits so hard
This is where I fall apart

 

There's a woman and a girl
Alone in the world
Making life their own
With vague directions home

There's a picture in a frame
A family and a name
Memories in the dark
And this is where I fall apart

Like a river flows
I, too, soon shall be free
When the north wind blows
I'll be joining you at sea

There's a history and a trace
Lives in disarray
No forgiveness to forsake
In the confines we make

There's solace in a song
Stifle weakness to be strong
Though I try so hard
This is where I fall apart

 

 

SHOOT-OUT AT THE MINI-MALL

There are too damn many people
In this wasteland of a world
All crying to be heard
Each singing their own songs
Of love and redemption
Their minds not even worthy birds

And in all of this fussing and fighting
The truth often gets lost
And no one hears what I say
I don't have a gripe
But if the time were ripe
I wouldn't hesitate
To reach for my AK

And there'll be a
Shoot-out at the mini-mall
More news at eleven
Shoot-out at the mini-mall
Gunman invades haven

All my life I've been criticized
For being unstable
And living on the brink
But if they'd shut up and listen
They might comprehend my intentions
And just how I think

You know that sane people
Are only put on this earth
To drive the rest of us crazy
Since I'm not a movie star
And I don't understand
How else to get heard
I'll just do what I can

(chorus)

I hope my mom will be watching the TV
As I storm the Circle K
Maybe she can see me waving hello to her
As I take hostages
And they show me on a newsbreak